Hiro Lynx 🐾♫🐧 @Hiro@loutre.info

When I think about it, tinnitus is much like to The Game. Except loss is accompanied by a very real penalty.

So after seeing an ENT, it appears that my ears are as healthy as they could be considering what they had to deal with in the past. As I suspected, I overreacted to a random temporary loud tinnitus and everything went haywire and now I just keep on looking for my tinnitus which makes it worse. I just have to learn to ignore it again. May take months but it’ll be okay.

I had some insomnia because of it but I recovered an okay sleep. Current heatwave doesn’t help much.

Sorry about the sad toots. Here’s some kitty beans.

It makes me think a lot about how life has an end and my body and senses slowly deteriorate. My legs and back that used to make me ski hard are weaker, I need stronger and stronger corrections for my eyes. My hair is thinner. I can’t hear anything above 12kHz anymore…

I begin to understand how life is short now that I’m approaching half of my life expectancy. Time passes really, really fast now.

I have to find other stuff to be obsessed with, get busy with things. Also go out, see people… Be gentle to my ears too. And I have an appointment with an ENT soon.

There’s often nothing you can do about tinnitus but with a good mindset it’s possible to cope pretty well.

So either my tinnitus goes back to normal, or I’ll get used to it again.

As loud as 3 weeks earlier, when it began.

I’ve read a lot about tinnitus, I’ve always had it but it was pretty mild so I didn’t care about it at all.

I may be experiencing a spike. My existing tinnitus is in overdrive because of sudden stress and anxiety (caused by the very loud transient additional tinnitus).

Spikes can last days to months. The key is that I have to try to not obsess over it. This is quite hard, I’m the kind of person that totally obsess over everything.

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Still strong. I noticed all sounds got louder, and also episodic pain near my ears. I’m going to see a doctor soon.

I really needed to talk about it a little. Thanks for reading.

However, even if now it seems completely gone, my other tinnitus are all louder than before. It’s been quite a day trying to distract myself from those, it’s very stressful and you may know that stress and anxiety do worsen tinnitus.

I managed to distract myself quite well during walks in noisy environments. But now it’s night and it’s harder. Music doesn’t quite make it although it usually does. So I took some anxiolytic as it is known to help. It’ll also help me sleep.

Full disclosure, last night a super loud, medium pitched tinnitus in my left ear litterally woke me up. Sometimes I have those and they last like 10 seconds before going away. This one didn’t seem to want to go away. I was a little worried because I was already picturing myself living with this new tinnitus :<

Two hours later it was still there but a little quieter. It seemed to decrease when I stayed perfectly still. Eventually I fell asleep and when I woke up again it was essentially gone.

I just remembered that Loreena McKennitt exists and makes divine music, and surprise there’s a new album scheduled to release in one week.

Living with tinnitus is pretty depressing to be honest. Please be wiser than me and take care of your ears.